That's what I have been told, and that's all what you have been teached, but often you do the opposite isnt it?! And than you find me mad and you don't  ask why.

You said its work for the goverment, where you will feel safe. Where we can trust. So i sacrfice my young years, my time, my will, my love, my desires, my spirit, my fishes, my freedom, my choices until i reach the point of endlessnes..

It's not nice, telling someone to be nice, to do what is being told and you will be revarded, for what i am asking myself? Yes, there is some work behind me, some progress, but it looks like it finished in the thrash, unrecognised, unpaid, unwanted... 

I can't call it as a failure because its worth something. 

In the midnhigt hour radio is calling me to be wild, another radio is calming to peace of mind. People are calling me to drown. and i chant