Feeling as a shit. Woke up deadly inside with emptyness all around and empty space where cousins used to be. Wanted to cry, but tears are dried. Sitting in front of this shity computer, with no news, with nothing to do. Starring, starring, starring! Not panic, just starring and some shity feelings such as i want my freedom, i want my life back and here i am . 

Inventing psychiatrist or a friend in my head who ask me "What Biljana do you want to do today"?

And first thing on my mind is i just wanna get high, go near the river, swim and dive.

Than lets do that! Yes, but i am stil feeling as a shit. 

Good night!